It started two days ago when one of my relatives was having a fever, their throat was sore, they was very weak, and they seemed to have sore spots. We didn't think it was covid because the rest of us didn't had any symptoms similar to theirs. Today, they wasn't getting any better to the point they were taken to the hospital. I got the news from my step-relative that they was tested positive, and there is a chance that we all got it. Right now we are focusing on recovery at home and keeping a distance to ourselves as much as possible.

This was really heavy news for me to hear. This virus has killed millions of people before, and because of the incompetence of us as a society, it has become the new flu. I have also heard it can do longlasting damage to the immune system once you take even the slightest strand of DNA, I don't know if that's true, but that is enough to give me an existential dread of our future. I am currently processing this news, and am just dread that even if we are to recover from it, the thought occurs how much of our lifespan has shortened. I pray to whatever God is out there, but I feel me and my family has been forsaken.

Everything is changing, everything is different now, and it feels it just got a lot more hopeless.